RESET

Sometimes we have to hit Reset to make our systems work...

It clears out the memory to allow for better processing. Sometimes it allows for new and improved programs to load into memory upon starting up. I hit my own reset button a couple of weeks ago for the first time in years to get myself on track. Out of all the people I know, I am one of the only ones who is nearly completely self taught, and completely self-motivated. No formal education is attributed to my technical knowledge that will ultimately allow me to reach my financial goals. Years of research, book reading, trial and error practice, and a great imagination will get me there. There is no goal I can't overcome. And if there has been any delay, it is because deep in me I have found that I don't have "a reason" of my own to succeed for. There was one time in my life that I had such a reason to motivate me, and at that time I was at the top of my game. But long since leaving that behind, I led a life that was very self-destructive (yet very life experience gaining).
"Loneliness will make you throw your sins away" - Henry Rollins.

Since moving on from the self-destruction I found it harder than ever to find meaning through the lack of a delusion. So I will do this for all of you that I care for, and though I will enjoy the success that will ultimately come of it, always remember that I left my character intact as it is here and now...
If you were to see me around lately you may hear and see me mutter the words "No I Don't!" every now and then. I am not going crazy, I am just training myself to no longer need anymore. "No I Don't!" is me telling myself "No I Don't want that". I hope soon enough I believe it so I don't feel so compelled to need "a reason" to get things done anymore. I never needed much to be happy, and though I won't buy a new car until I can afford a new Porsche 997 Turbo, this material possession was never enough to get me going. Unfortunately my drive is not dependent obtaining these worldly things, and since I can't (and really never had) have what I want, this Reset has to yield a mindset that runs on another type of fuel. Maybe a sense of true altruism to help society. I guess we will see...

So in the meantime, I apologize to those who I have inconvenienced for taking so long and being so late in completing my work, you all have done all that you could. And since I am ultimately the only one capable of fulfilling this destiny that I have laid before all of you, I will remember your loyalty and patience with me as this concept that I have designed and am creating from scratch is only the first one of many that are ready to become a reality...

This ignorance is not my style.